10/10/2020 0 Comments My Struggle with PerfectionismMental health matters. ❤️ Today is #WorldMentalHealthDay, so I am opening up about my struggle with perfectionism to help break the stigma that surrounds mental health. Click "Read More" to read about my experience with perfectionism. I have been a perfectionist my entire life. This personality trait served me well for the majority of my school career, so I only thought of it in a positive light. I went above and beyond on projects and I always turned in assignments on time. It was not until sophomore year that I fully realized the ugly truth of my perfectionism. I was taking harder courses that year and I put a lot of my pressure on myself to earn perfect grades on everything. This led to a lot of unnecessary stress and I began to experience shaking, heart palpitations, and intense zap headaches. Thankfully I have found ways to manage my stress so that I do not get physical reactions as often anymore, but I still struggle with my perfectionism mentally. I tend to be very hard on myself, especially when it comes to mistakes. The mistake could be as small as not wearing the “right” shoes for an outfit, but it sends me into a self doubt spiral. I begin to think I am not smart, enough, or worthy. I then get upset at myself for being upset at myself. It may seem silly to get so upset over a minor detail, and it is, but the feeling is very real to me in the moment. I am happy to say that I have come a long way, but I know I have further to go. I still struggle with my perfectionism, but I am working hard at breaking the cycle. When I am having a perfectionist episode, I have found that talking to someone about what I am experiencing really helps! (Shout out to all the lovely people in my life 😘) Being so vulnerable on the internet scares me, but I am hoping that this makes someone out there feel seen and supported. You are not alone. You are enough. You matter. You are so much more than your flaws. xoxo Natalie ❤️⭐️
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